I've been feeling especially grateful for my little guy lately. Sometimes when I see his angelic face, joyful smile, or hear his boystirus laugh the emotion wells so deep that I can barely contain myself.
Even though a lot of people don't say it, I know when people hear about Boston and his mild form of autism, they think "Wow, I'm glad I don't have that challenge." But you know what, I feel so beyond LUCKY to be his Mom. I can hardly believe that Heavenly Father entrusted JT and I with his care. Often times I don't feel good enough to be called his Mother; but I have never been more grateful for such an extraordinary gift.
Sure there are hard times. I hate when he throws fits in public. When he is so upset that he tries to rip my clothes off me, when he throws himself down on the side walk and getting home seems like a forever journey. It is frustrating that he won't answer simple questions and just stares off into space. It's frustrating that he doesn't come up to me and say "Mom.. look" or "Mom.. I need this" It's frustrating when I can't shower or clean the house because I feel like every moment of my free time should be spent working with him. With this disorder you never take anything for granted. Every new word. Every high 5. Every time he looks me in the eye. Every time he laughs or smiles or turns around when I say "Boston" is nothing short of MIRACULOUS!! He continues to amaze me every day. Amazed me. When the doctor first diagnosed him he told me and I quote "I'll bet you a years salary. He will not talk until he is 3!" I would like to send a video of him to that doctor requesting a hefty check, because at 27 months he says 40 words. 2 1/2 months ago he said 4. We set a goal with his speech therapist to have him saying 35 words by Christmas. There is no doubt in my mind that he will double that number by the time we celebrate Christ's birth.
Boston works harder than any two year old I know. He goes to therapy and sits at a desk 3 days a week and at 28 months he starts preschool next month. When other kids are watching Blue's Clues he is watching Baby Signing Time and Teach 2 Talk (not that I don't let him watch regular stuff.. I do.) He is always doing flash cards or puzzles or complying to my requests of "where's your nose.." "what color is that.." "what number is that.." He is such a great kid and all the positives outweigh the negatives ten fold. People don't give him credit for how smart he is. He corrects me all the time. He can do a puzzle once and know right where the pieces go. His memory is amazing. He often shouts out what comes next on his shows before it ever hits the screen. He plays his own DVD's. He learns so quickly.
He loves to wrestle and hug JT and I. He gets right in our faces and makes us kiss him. He loves for us to chase him and tickle him and it never takes much to get that big belly laugh rolling. Lately he has taken great interest in Jocelyn. I notice him looking at her in the back of the car all the time. He wants to hug her and hold her and she loves him just as much. She will coo at him more than anyone else.
Sure I get down about his challenges all the time but I will never put any limits on his ABILITIES. Boston is Amazing Unique Talented Interesting Smart and sometimes Mysterious. You will go so far in this life Boston and your Daddy and I will be cheering you on all the way.
And as for the Girl. She will be 3 months before I know it. She cries less, smiles more and I find myself falling in love with her more each day. She too is full of personality. She's the princess, the diva, and her smile can also make me melt. She's a talker and I know I will spend so many hours with her doing "Girl Talk" She'll call me crying all the time.. I can see it now. Oh the drama of a girl.. but I sure love her. I took her to the doctors yesterday and the petite princess is 9 lbs. 15 oz. 22 in long in the 10th percentile for everything. You'd think she was my daughter or something by those marks. I love you my little doll.
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Hey Carly- I understand what your going through, Bridger has a speech delay, and its hard communicate. He was 14 months and he didn't say anything. They sent us over to a speech therapist, learning how to sign and how to say the words. My Bridger was getting so frustrated he would hit everyone and yell at the time. I couldn't take him anywhere, we just joined a play group that works specifically for behavioral. It teaches the parents how to set rules, I actually just wrote about it on my blog you'll have to check it out. I just read your blog and tears were just falling out because I know exactly how you feel. I have had people say to me so many times how active my kids are how sometimes Heavenly Father knows who he sends he's kids too,because they wouldn't have the patience for it. But I look at my sweet little boy and I feel so lucky to be his mother, I love him so much and I am privileged to be his mom. Thank you for posting your thoughts!! They were needed if only for me to read!!
Hey sorry I hadn't read this yet. GREAT post. I too think that Boston is amazing. I know what ever he puts his mind to he will accomplish with flying colors. HE is lucky to have such a devoted mom and dad. I love you Boston. I know you and Jack will always be best friends. We can't wait to see you tomorrow or late tonight. see ya then!
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